Who Am I Really Fooling Anyway
Imposter syndrome as a pep talk: let go, lighten up, and admit the recurring dream where you're short two credits on the degree.
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Track fifteen on KŌAN, KŌAN C (June 30, 2022), after No Worries, Yes Worries. Luke solo; YouTube video.
Imposter syndrome dressed up as a pep talk. The self-help imperatives stack up (lighten up, go deal with it, laugh it up), and the title hook deflates all of them. Underneath is the exit fantasy: how freeing it would be to quit right here.
The anxiety gets specific in the recurring-dream verse: you graduate, get the job, and they find out you were short two credits and never earned the degree. The ambitions crash the same way, the dream undone by the machine it depends on (my laptop crashes and there’s no autotune to save me).
Same KŌAN C identity thread as What Makes You You and 無門関: if you’re faking it, who’s the you underneath? The Bent Stick takes the other side, on standing behind what you can’t prove.
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Written, performed, and mixed by Luke Francis Walton. Mastered by Riley Knapp. Artwork by Grizzard Graphics.
Lyrics
Let go of it There no point in it Don't sit in it Yeah lighten up Don't run from it There no good in it Go deal with it Yeah, laugh it up No time for it Ignoring it I don't need it Who am I really fooling anyway? But who am I really fooling anyway? Yeah, who am I really fooling anyway? Living like a fraud Dumb luck cannot make up for it I'm faking it Unraveling my brain bit by bit How'd I end up here Someone should've stopped me at the doorknob Alone in it How freeing it would be to quit right here Let go of it There no point in it Don't sit in it Yeah lighten up Don't run from it There no good in it Go deal with it Yeah, laugh it up No time for it Ignoring it I don't need it Who am I really fooling anyway? But who am I really fooling anyway? Yeah, who am I really fooling anyway? I have a recurring dream In my senior year of college I graduate But I don't know I'm short two credits Then I get a job Everything is good until they find out I never really Earned the degree on my resume I wanna a superhero I wanna be an expert Writer of the textbook That probably gets rewritten by smarter people I wanna be a rock star Wanna be a singer Dancing at the Grammy's But then my laptop crashes and there's no autotune to save me Let go of it There no point in it Don't sit in it Yeah lighten up Don't run from it There no good in it Go deal with it Yeah, laugh it up No time for it Ignoring it I don't need it Who am I really fooling anyway? But who am I really fooling anyway? Yeah, who am I really fooling anyway?